justice to all
& 6:49 PM &
hey!decide to post today.just a short one.
i've realized that.the freaking real truth hurts.whether it is actually a good thing to you or a bad thing to you.everything just hurts.if u realized, when u get wat u wanted.the others actually didn't.that is e real life.somehow somewhat.we have to face it.i think that each year i've grown matured by at least 20%..?and every year im exposed to new things which brought me closer to know whats e maening of a real life.having such a wonderful family with caring siblings and understanding parents.i felt so blessed. Though we have lots of quarrels and such.Problems would always be resolved.In life,u would always be confused of what decisions to make.but after every path that u chose.u realised that u learnt something out of it.what my cousin said is true.i should not be pesimisstic.I should be counting on my blessings and be thankful for that.ohmygod. I think that is what every teenager is lacking!To those that are having severe depression problems or stress.You should learn to understand yourself and do not let emotions overcome your mind.you should also try to find time to relax and ask yourself why is this happening to you.there is always a reason in every problem that you encounter.Last of all,treasure your life and spend more time with the love ones=]] Sometimes,or maybe all the time,i wish i could just escape or vanish into thin air when i'm feeling super down.But somehow,i didn't.it's all thanks to the almighty..i wish i could be more decisive in whatever i do.
so long.
<3suhana
Thursday, January 25, 2007
im juz tired of it..plz understand.
& 8:36 PM &
hmm..band was awesome.but i wasnt.i donno.things jz don't work out for me..urgh..y does it hv to be painful..im letting it go..i jz miss them.i feel lyk breaking dwn.i didn noe it would be difficult for me..man.im soggy.im jz too depressed to tink of anything..im sorry to u.DON'T WORRY for me..seriously..jz let me be..i need a break..ive been seriously weird this days..extremely weird.even he said it..sorry la if i actually frightened u..ahaha.emm..well im afraid dat things would get worser.i don't want to bcome lyk her..tsktsk..URGH!!!fuckfuckfuck..yY!!!???y lyk this..?ohmygod.i feel sorry for myself..em..i love you ALL=] i wish i could be free one day.jz lyk my lifetime friend.
suhana.somehow pathetic and in need of a hug.
i wanna be home again!
& 7:08 PM &
.....i miss home.again.urgh..nice day wit cheryll n wanteng!hehe..i love to crap wit dem!!esp wit cheryll=] u made my day!alalalaaa...she might be saying craps n nonsense..but i find it entertaining..ahaha ok la..hmm..he is missing my aunt.she is missing her guy in NS.me missing e home n family n frens. see..everybody in this hse is missing their loved ones..aiyo..how pathetic can we be huh..i needa massage frm my mama n abah..omg..dat would be so relaxing ya..haiz nvm..looking forward for wednesday!not fr e maths test though:-]
emm...i need a vacation..!in japan maybe.i wanna meet dat lil kid..aiya..faster march! bt not april..!!ahah...to my girls:
cheryll,i wan u to crap more and entertain us wit ur clever n wise n lame sentences!
vani, i wan u to laugh more and mk dat stupid mimicking voices of peeps[apparently u r good in it]
christina, love me more!!ahaha as a fren la..share e secrets n stuffs!!
wanteng, smile more!!lyk it..wen u smile,we will smile.ahaha.contagious smile=]]
nuzrath, hehe..don frget to piss people off!!and tok more on current affairs!but nt politics and shits..oops
samantha, pliz tok to us.we are lyk drifting apart?...i donno..gal ah, don be lyk dat la..mz hang out wit us more often!
hmm..dats all i wanna say to my girlfriends.if u realize, i use quite alot of mores'.it means i wan MORE !....ok.off to my prayers.
suhana.end.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
read it!
& 3:28 PM &
this is to all dat people out der..if u tink im bossy,snobbish or maybe 'yaya'.well..u might be right or maybe wrong..but even if u wanna tok abt me..confront me and say it straight to my face la.at e most,im jz gonna feel bad wat..bt if wat u say is not a fact den im gonna argue back la...DUH.pliz la..im jz doin my job..if u tink im not suitable to be in dat post den jz tell her la..i don mind being a norm memb..if u tink im too much..den i sincerely aplogize ..if u tink its not enough ..den punish me...besides u all have e rights mah...wit e way dat u all r behaving..we r goin nower..its nt gonna help me or u..we r suppose to back up wit each other instead of hving this stupid problems.we r suppose to stay united and get back to wat we are actually suppose to do...we hav a big mission dat is yet to be accomplished..but yet,we r not cooperating..we r seriously letting e memb down.im doin this cz im concern.its ok if u tink im jz putting on an act.
i wan justice not for me.but we.
hanahanahana
weary of loneliness
& 8:09 PM &
IM EXTREMELY LONELY!!!!!!!!!!
im so so so so bored..i seriously wanna live wit my family..i tink i hav bipolar!oops.hmm juz kidding la..i tink this is e worst part of my lyf.unable to live wit my own family jz to gt good grades!!urgh.i hate it.i noe ive benefited from my good grades.but still.it doesn really make me feel happy..maybe contented abit la..besides dat,i get separated frm my best friendssss..himherhimher..walau...very sad la.if im able to pull through this part of my lyf till o level...gosh.im a SUPER WOMAN=]...i wld be so proud of myself..but sumtyms..i couldn take it..im seriously tired of being lonely,depressed n being emo sumtyms..my aunt is leaving nex week..i wonder how i can cope wit e silence in e house..i told my mom lot of tyms dat i wanna live at qwnstwn...but she says dat e environment is nt suitable 4 me to study..besides,der is nobody to help me wit my academics..wth..aiya..its pointless for me say it here.cz it wont help.i wish e TNFs are living in e same HDB block sia.dat would be awesome.
p.s : i love getting As though
hanahanahana.
ii miss uu guys
& 8:54 PM &
soobbx!!!
i miss uu guys so
badly!!
class seem soO weird
without uu guys!!!
HUH.
wanteng):
doughnut):
wanwan):
Thursday, January 04, 2007
might be e last post of e mth?from me.
& 8:22 PM &
i wanna start my post with bissmillah...we had band practice today.so it didn turn out well.hmm.after lots of thinking..i think that sometymes we shud take MS TAN words seriously.we ain't gonna take her for granted.though she is a little too much sumtyms.to my dear bandmates out der.this year is an important year for e band ,seniors and us.we had alots of goals and aims in our life.but frankly,how many of them did we actually fulfilled?all i wanna say is,we shud seriously take pride in our work and focus and fulfilled dat goal of ours.we might be separated in skol.but our heart beat as one in band.so please,y not make a difference in ur life this year.SACRIFICE is e word.let's concentrate on our studies and music!let today's band practice be a wake up call to us.we only have a few mths left to e SYF.all of us are smart.we noe wat to do.but its e laziness and our characters.if u guys wanna go to sec 4 and have a silver medal for band.then, let's not blog anymore and try not to go online often.i noe some of u are addicted to it.but...we have to sacrifice to achieve dat goal.i seriously wanna graduate and leave this schoool with no regrets.i hope u guys too..this year is gonna be a little tougher.lets work hard OK!!no matter wat.u nerdies are my frens.au revoir:] lets achieve our goal and put aside stuffs dat are not important.
and so,i prayed to ALLAH to answer my prayers and fulfill my wish.May he bless us.amin
hana<3
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
boring day
& 9:28 PM &
hey mates..today is e first day..and as expected..its super boring..still not getting used to it..in anw,im glad dat we still hav band and recess to see each other again!..hmm.donno la..i miss everything dat i had during 2006.but its a new year..we hav to move on..SYF is wat im afraid most besides e exam..dat is e onli competition dat we cn prove ourself..aiyo..how i wish i could be a full tym music and maybe art student.its raining ryte now..hmm maybe e god is crying wit us..well..i cant wait for our nex outing..hopefully u guys would be free.maybe we shud go out after saturdays practice..!dat would be awesome..alot of stuffs has been going through our clique ..but it wont lead to a misunderstandings and so.had drumlesson todae.it was fun=] but ken has not been cming..gone back to taiwan?donno..kindda miss him..haha. i hope in future,i would not be goin n cming back alone frm e drumlesson..its so lonely..but i've asked my dad to ask for transfer..lets hope i could go to e nearer one..yea!! Band PRACTICE tmr!! excited?!?!
well.i dont tink i am.he,we.never improved.can e seniors come back and HELP!!!!!i hope u guys can make it..
hana=]
hmm..nagging mama?nah
